Steve, I'm sorry.  We have a lot in common.  My work precludes me from taking much time off.  When I went to the big Willow Grove show in the fall of 1988, I was only able to go because my family and I were visiting friends in Indiana.  I never could have done that, living as we were in South Dakota.  Within one night, I spent all the money I had brought.  I went the following day, looking around, seeing all kinds of cards and items I would want to buy.  Speaking to a dealer about an item I wanted from him, when he ascertained I was broke, aside from the funds I needed to get back to Indiana, he quietly asked me, "WHAT are you doing here?"  He wasn't trying to humiliate me, or shame me, but I soon walked out of the show.  
Going to the National today, I would not have had enough to do any serious buying, and why go if the stuff you really enjoy is way out of your range?  I guess at my age, I am accepting this fact of life.  Perhaps I would enjoy browsing and admiring.
Perhaps.
Anyway, I sincerely apologize to you for my chiding, though I hope you know my tone was "Ah, come on, buddy, you can do this...."  There really can be long periods when, "No buddy, I cannot do this."
At least we both have a collection we can still enjoy and admire.
 
Have a peaceful day, mate.  ----Brian Powell